The Road Less Traveled

Written by Kate Wildrick, January 1, 2024

Embarking on this new year, I cannot help but feel the overwhelming tug to look back on the marvelous twists and turns that have brought me to this very moment. All of the culminated experiences, setbacks, achievements and heartbreaks that have been raveled and unraveled over and over again have brought me to this version that I exist as right now. I am the sum and the absence of many things and perhaps, this is what I love and despise at the same time. Despite what most of us are indoctrinated to believe early on, life is not linear. In fact, it spirals up and down. It is in this vacillation that we are able to explore these nuances that we naturally miss. In seeing the challenges and opportunities from different perspectives, we can appreciate the levels of growth we had had to go through and discover what we could not necessarily see or accept. It is here in these folds, that we discover who we are, were and have the chance to become. In this non logical, non linear path we find the way back to ourself.

Writing these words, I return back to the iterations of who I was and what feels like lifetimes ago that I once lived. Growing up, I was given strict instructions of who I could and could not be. As I matured and made my way out into the world, I found myself adopting more constructs that made me rigid. Perfectionism, productivity and efficiency were all my allies and gave me comfort to hide behind so that I stayed too busy to investigate what was really going on within. As I achieved my goals and exceeded my own personal expectations, something within me began to grow weary and wonder if there was anything more to life. So I worked harder, set bigger goals and strived to be even more successful. My work took me to very interesting places and projects in the corporate world of human capital management and organizational development. Eventually finding myself in a place of burnout, I sought to pursue something new and very different. So, I left the corporate world and purchased a town (with my now ex husband) in the middle of Central Oregon around the age of 30. It was thrilling and going against the grain of what many cautioned us not to do, we deviated from the norm and status quo and went for it. For a time being we were happy. We thrived making some big changes and positioning things to grow to the next level. We were hopeful. We were happy. Then things changed. As the economic downturn of 2008/09 took hold, we were unable to keep up with the financial obligations. It was here that I fell apart. As I watched everything that I had worked so hard for disintegrate, I too, felt myself unraveling. I was unable to hold things together.

Starting over was difficult. I had turned against myself and as a result, I fell victim to my own lies and deception. Being your own worst enemy is a story that I have learned many understand. At one time or another, we all become the villain in our own life. We become terribly cruel and inauthentic. Sadly, we see such characteristics and qualities being celebrated and rewarded in our culture, which only causes the divide within to grow. We are left wondering what is worthy of our time, effort and attention. Does one pursue a life of surface level exchanges, a perceived sense of security and stability, or to strive to risk it all in hopes to know and be more than we ever knew was possible? I chose the latter.

The road I pursued was one that took me into an internal landscape that was full of visceral imagery that contained the deepest and most profound map that guided me through a terrain that conventional behavior or cognitive based therapy would never be able to take me to. It was here, I was able to confront and see the lies I had bought into, the self saboteurs who ran the show and the deep wounds and traumas that had been strung together as tectonic plates that shook me to the core when they moved. Sometimes they would initiate tsunamis that would erode away at any change I traction I had put in place. Other times, the viscous quakes would violently upheave and throw around the lifelines of communication and connection that stitched together my fragile world. The point is, seeing and understanding what was happening this way gave me a framework to understand what unseen ecosystems exist within. Their complicated construction and energetic interdependency naturally gave rise to highly engrained patterns that traveled deep recessed canyons of unconscious and subconscious exchanges that boldly and silently ran the show. In seeing how my inner world functioned, I began to track the parallels in the world around me.

One by one, I began to face and shift the disempowering dynamics. As I did, I watched as the ecosystem within morph. Energy that was deeply tied up in playing out old wounds, traumas and fears was freed up. I began to refocus that energy on new possibilities, ideas and thoughts. What once had a grip on me soon gave way to experiences that produced exciting outcomes. I began to realize that this was what I had truly longed for. Rigidity, predictability and stagnancy strangle growth and the potential for something new to emerge or be invented. The same was true for being able to invent a new version of one’s self.

The work that I do as a healer, coach and mentor is one that has taken years to perfect and refine. I have developed a gift and unique skill to see the unseen and help break the bonds that keep disempowering systems in place so something brand new can take hold and flourish. In helping people become conscious of what is happening within themselves from a very unique and visceral perspective, we have a chance to disrupt what is going on while also being able to see and understand how and why things became interdependent energetically to fuel existing patterns of dysfunction, sabotage, and self imposed limits. As a “quantum hacker,” my role is to help those I work with understand things from a place that is not fueled by shame, judgement, self hatred, etc. Instead, employing curiosity and play, we set off on an adventure into the internal terrains to explore and discover the amazing gifts and insights that are waiting to be retrieved and integrated in a way that brings about wholeness and self mastery. In clearing away the brambles, I travel with those to find the biggest culprits that steal dreams, destroy health and well being, and block prosperity and abundance. In starting with The Hidden Roadmap Package, we intentionally set the course to forever alter one’s life over the course of five sessions. From there, an opportunity is given to further solidify the work by mindfully leveraging one’s external reality and life challenges to go deeper into clearing and understanding what needs to be healed, built, dismantled, rethought and cultivated to continue to move one’s self in a new direction. Through this Coaching work, we will shift reality and open up the door to the big work. For those who find great excitement in discovering what I have, there is a chance to be invited to a special Advanced Mentorship space that as of now, involves three tiers of development work that will initiate a deeper level of self mastery to actualize and fulfill one’s fuller potential.

If there is one thing that this work and the clients I have had the gift of journeying with over the years is that we should never fear what is within. It is there for a reason and when we understand that and work to heal or shift it, miracles happen. If you would like to learn more and see if this work is right for you, please Contact Me to schedule a time for a free consultation.